Finally under 600 days. :)

Look at that countdown! I am finally under the 600's! Haha. That's another milestone in my time of waiting. I'm cruiiiissiinnn. :)

Oh and Elder Graham made sure to remind me in my last letter that he makes 6 months his next transfer (in May). I didn't acknowledge it but I thought, "Hmm..guess I'm not the only one counting up!" Lol. I still won't talk about how much time has gone by or how much time is left though. I want to keep him focused.

Only 2 more weeks of school then finals then I'M HOMMEEEE!!!! :D Summer, i love you.

P.S. - I don't know why, but I just love this picture. Probably because I can hear and see exactly what he's doing with the dog even though I wasn't there. I just know him that well. He makes me smile and laugh without even trying. He makes me smile and laugh by just living. :) I love him...

Oh dang

I can't believe tomorrow marks 4 months already!!!! I'm so stoked aahhh!! Haha I know it's only 1/6th of my entire waiting period but you gotta admit, that is definitely an accomplishment! 4 months of success! I only have to do it 5 more times. Cheehee!

And...yeah...a lot can happen in one week, I'll just say that.

March = Choke Birthdays = FATTY Month

Yesterday - Happy 19th Birthday Christine!! Happy 19th Birthday Tarina!!

Today - Happy 19th Birthday Jill!!

Tomorrow - Happy 55th Birthday Daddy!! Happy 19th Birthday Rachel!!

Friday - Happy 19th Birthday to meeeee!! :)

Okay. I think that just about covers it. Gosh...all these birthdays means eating ice cream and cake over and over again. I reeeeallly need to start losing weight. I'll start working out more and trying to eat less and stuff AFTER my birthday. I need to look hot this summer! Ahh nah, who am I kidding? It's not like Josh will be surfing with me this summer. :( GAY! Last summer was so amazing surfing with him. Oh well, these will be my last 2 summers without him and then I'll never have to spend a day without him ever again :D

Yes! I'm almost out of the 600's (days)!! Freak, I barely even made a dent in the number of days I have left of waiting, hahaha. Whatevers. He'll be home soon enough, right? :) I have to stay positive or else I'll just be making this harder on myself.

Te amo...
Aloha wau ia 'oe...
Elder Joshua Graham.

Happy Early Birthday to ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I got to celebrate my birthday a week early this year. Since I went home for my grandfather's funeral, my family threw a little birthday dinner for me last night before I went to the airport to come back to Utah. My mommy made me a birthday cake and everything. I didn't get any amazing crazy expensive birthday presents from my parents this year and I didn't expect anything because honestly I was just happy to be home with my family, I really missed them and felt like I grew a lot closer to them over these past 5 days. But can I just say it feels like a sick joke that I fell asleep in beautiful, warm Hawaii last night and woke up to freezing, snowy UTAH?! (Only about a month and a half left... I can do it...I can survive...blehhh).

But I came back to college HAPPY!!!!!!!!! thanks to JOSH! Goodness...if it weren't for his package lying on my bed when I walked in the door I would've felt miserable. But for my birthday he sent me a letter, a motherload of my favorite candy (Twix & Dove Dark Chocolates), and his memory stick with CHOKE pictures and videos, including a special video he recorded of himself telling me happy birthday..and stuff. :) :) :) It made me so happy to hear his voice again and to see his smiling face. Although I think it's kinda funny he's so pale now :P hopefully he gets some tan back during the summers in Florida...oh yeah! I forgot to mention I got two very, very long birthday emails from him this morning (it's P-day).

Although I absolutely loved being home despite the slightly rainy and overcast weather, it kinda made it harder for me academicaly because now I'm totally in summer mode! At least I managed to go to my classes today...but I haven't studied yet. I gotta get on that. My dad told me right before we left for the airport that I have to finish this semester strong...I want to do it for myself, my parents, and for JOSH. I love him so much... :) His binder is getting too thick and heavy...I might need another one already! :P

Oh and one more thing..Happy 19th Birthday Christine!

I passed the 100 day mark! :)

I haven't blogged in forever! I think that's a good sign though, it shows I've been busy and focusing on other things rather than moping around missing Josh. I was so happy on Thursday! I got 3 envelopes in the mail from him! 2 letters and 1 pass along card with the temple on it with little notes written all over the back of it. He makes me so happy, I love him so much. Little things everyday remind me of how much I love him and how right this is. I can't help but smile. :)

Fast update: My grandfather passed away last week, so I'm about ready to go to the airport to fly home (YES!!) for his funeral. Although I am not happy he has passed away, it was definitely the best thing for him at this point because he was so depressed after my grandma passed away a year ago, and he's been in really bad health for a very long time too. It was his time, and at least he is happy with my grandma and at peace. I love him and he will be missed.

While I was unloading my little Hello Kitty suitcase to use for this trip last night, I found my old plane tickets from last October...when I flew home to see Josh for halloween weekend. I started crying because of course it brought back such amazing memories that I don't want to ever forget and I miss him...and also because...I guess when your missionary has been gone for a while you begin to wonder if it was even real..and just holding that plane ticket in my hands was reassurance to me that, yes, this is real: his love for me is real, my love for him is real, and the fact that we will be married for time and all eternity someday is real.